SOMETIMES THE THINGS WE FEAR THE MOST . . . . .
Are the very things we need to experience and move through in order to get to the happy, connecting, real and beautiful elements of our lives that WE HAVE BEEN ASKING FOR. Sometime you may have to S-T-R-E-T-C-H out beyond your comfort zone in order to get that next thing on your wish list.
When reflecting back over this last year—there have been a few eensie weensie (understatement) growing pains in my life.
(And there were massive, super-wow, incredible, joy-filled moments of bliss, connection, beauty and truth)
There was the discomfort of knowing that I wanted certain things, but was truly afraid to admit it to myself.
Who am I to want…..this?
Who am I to deserve………that?
There was the fear that no matter what I did—it wouldn’t be good enough. EVER.
There was the fear I wouldn’t finish it.
There was the confusion over HOW to do it.
There were the comparisons and the negative chatter of my runaway brain.
There were moments I wanted to quit, hide, run and be a big cry baby ( or just have a good cry)
There were moments I felt guilty, ashamed, stuck and unheard.
And then, I surrendered to all of it and just said ……OK.
And in return, I won’t give into fear. I will choose love and I will choose faith.
I brought an attitude of “this or something even better please” over “oh shit, not this again!”
I never took my eyes off of what I asked for.
Unwavering (and still scared)
In moving through the seemingly insurmountable mountains that life sometimes places in our path—is the beauty inherent in the mountain.
Is the beauty in the struggle.
Is the light in the darkness.
Is the “BIG A-HA” waiting for us on the other side of the challenge, when we get to see what we are really made of and just how magnificent and powerful we are.
I know, this isn’t a major new idea…….that great things can come from the not so great things, but I just wanted to share(from a very real, heartfelt place) just how incredible it is when you surrender, know you’re love and just simply be that.
It doesn’t have to be such a big, hairy deal—life.
It’s all ok. It’s better than ok. In fact, it’s what we make it.
It all comes down to a choice.
The choice to live in fear. Or the choice to live in LOVE.
I choose love. And super-wow.